I feel for all those out there that either are at risk and worried or having a difficult time during this crisis.
I am really done with all this BS we are getting in the media as the numbers ( often different by every source)are not making sense.they simply do NOT have REAL numbers too many may have had with mild or no symptoms and recovered these will never be confirmed.
In my area a local death was being reported without the patients age/ health issues or other complications in order i believe to LEAD the story in a way to scare more people.
The person's family came out and stated age/ previous health issues and the fact the person did NOT seek medical help until it was too late regardless that the family had urged the person to for a week. I seriously cannot trust the local news after this blatant omitting of information to fit a narrative.
I did not get out before the great TP buyout and now down to my last few rolls so will need to venture out to find supplies it has been a couple weeks i have a hard time seeing why some still have no stock of some items.
The company I am at is open and most are working from home which means even less work then i had going in but as i am doing work and no cost for commute or other expenses I actually have came out a bit ahead this last 2 weeks.
I also do not understand what some people call essential as the number of places closed here seems to be smaller then those still open as "essential"
I feel for all those out there that either are at risk and worried or having a difficult time during this crisis.
As with any hobby there are ups and downs and since I really like to people watch this hysteria has upped the drama.
The absolute meltdown of a person since Starbucks is not refilling reusable cups at this time who cares about pandemics if you can save a paper cup . ...
The person who thinks the young lady at the store can be convinced to "find" some hand sanitizer they are somehow holding in the backroom for really "special people.
The few ladies who brought their kids (since their school is closed ) to McDonald's to play together while mommies talk. or chatting in store as their kids are licking the cart......
Welcome to the hot zone......
We got a serious email from CEO asking people to come only if it is VITAL but evidently my boss does not know what that means. I sat for 4 hours with nothing to do.... nor does 25% of Staff still on site they have one suspected case they said they would alert anyone who may have had contact as we have many buildings. We badge in each time to enter but NO one that had visited suspects building has been notified and security company says the data is not easy to compile it would be pages and pages as people come and go so they are just asking guy who he talked to not who was near him......
Clearly as I look around I see so many simply herding cats .... I feel for anyone with health issues that will make this more dangerous.
If people are counting on the words they were told they are going to be severely disappointed. Most "actions" were after the cat is out of the bag and overlooking the pre-symptom time frame.
We usually break even with taxes in most years I was curious as how this year would turn out.
Since I temped with 2 different placement groups I could no longer log in to get a look early for one group so had to wait for mail.
It is super bizarre I always fill out withholding the same but I made more money at that placement overall and they took out way less tax, then they should have.
So a quick calculation shows us owing big.
I can cut total owed down by adding to my (2019)IRA as I can deduct the full contribution. It is not a dollar for dollar swap and we will end up paying something but I can bring it down by a good chunk.
It is frustrating since it will take my focus and funds from my regular savings plan or I can dig into one of my savings accounts. It also means now is not the time to leave this job even though I hate it.
I also had a small medical visit that I am not sure how the new insurance will pay. I just feel somewhat defeated at the moment.
How often do you look around or actually observe the small piece of world around you??
I am very bored at work and I am trying to appease myself into staying at least half the year to my contract end date. I am running out of diversions to take up time. So I started to look around and observe co-workers to find what makes these people tick and make them seem ok with the boredom. ( many are not as bored as they seem to have difficulty doing the tasks or end up redoing several times)
BAD idea in this case but I have had places before that the people were interesting enough that made up for job issues. I almost feel like I am less inspired to stay here.
Do the people around you in job/ social circles inspire you (financially)?
or do you look around and think these people are why so many are in debt, live paycheck to paycheck and have NO plan.
While this company has a strict sounding training on NO insider trading their actions of late seem to defy it.
Upper management for months telling employees NOW is a good time to buy stock etc. Then since many employees are NOT in shape to go out and buy stock on their own they are now setting up and pushing an ESPP ( only for real employees not the many contractors they employ) makes me nervous at the mixed messages.
The products some still in testing etc seem to be a good bet but the actions lately of company seem to throw up red flags.....
So as the new year starts I want to hit the ground running...
I have not hit the maximum for IRA/ Roth for 2019 but from experience last year even with notations it is for 2019 sometime in the processing they credit 2020.
I am thinking forgoing trying to finish 2019 contributions but jump to this year.
I toy every other month with slowing down the extra house payoff and throwing more in retirement accounts but I feel cautious that I do not want to throw too much at investing buying at high prices.
Which brings me to the job front. I do not want to stay but the money is good and I have flush funds to invest... so i could find something else but for same hours i would be making less per hour. my contract lasts until July I have lasted this long unless they offer a permanent position i will decline.
we had a quiet holiday went across state to see the grand kids.
We have been really cutting back on holiday purchases simply because our immediate family has no real need of items that they do not go out and buy themselves. Spent money for a breakfast out today before we headed home and we brought some items that we had on Christmas dinner.
SIL and daughter both had colds so they gave us a cold for Christmas!
I know it was not on purpose but i feel like something is seriously coming on. Hopefully i can just rest up before I return to work on the 2nd.
I enjoy reading the other blogs and although I could probably add up the total of expenses throughout the year it would take some detective work.
I do know that I paid $7040.21 towards principal on house #1. with just regular payments would have been $3600.
I also was able to contribute a good amount to my IRA and a Roth IRA. I will check to see how much I need to meet the max for 2019 since i still have a few months to meet that.
my investments capital gain/ dividend netted about $9800.00 in December.
DH got a call when we were traveling the owner of his company has a surprise bonus check for him so I guess we will see what that is next week.
I realize my posts have been a bit of a bummer and was used to vent my frustration but maybe i need to try to see the possibility of lemonade out of the lemons.
I have a home / my family is doing well/ my investments just reported huge dividends and capital gains (most in retirement accts) only a bit in taxable investments/ i do not need this job but it is affording me the opportunity to sock away money to meet some goals.
my car would not start (the battery was low) i had to wait about 30 plus minute but DH came and jumped the car.
I had raised the hood in parking lot but not one person whom was leaving work asked if i need help or anything. i was a bit surprised as the act so nice in the context of work. My DH reminded me that some people do not know how to do simple things like give a jump. Basic life skills they need to hire someone.
All in all I am good the reason this job is so boring is most around me make it harder then it is create problems that do not exist and if they live their life that way it must be awful.
The holidays are upon us and once again the hassle will start i should just jump right in.
I cancelled Christmas one year, i had zero help was working OT in retail and DH thought i should be able to do it all NOPE. I know he was mad and continues to remind me of that fateful year. This year our kids are grown they have different lifestyles and interests and do not need Stuff just because. I want to honor that wish and no longer give gifts out of obligation......... but as always.... DH will wait until last second and ask what did you get for x/ y or z??????
I tried to get ahead of the issue by saying do you want more knick knacks we don't need? ... well neither do they. it is not sinking in his thick skull.
I told him i am not sure we should even buy anything but a small item for grandkids as their other side of family ( dollar store type) fills their house with tons of garbage toys that they play with a few times and forget or break.
In the last year etc we just added money to a fund we started for them but once again DH is off on a buy garbage bonanza. He seems dismayed that some items are backorder and will not be available until january.....DUH it is midway in December.
This along with the fact we have personal business to take care of by end of year but he seems to think we have lots of time is driving me insane.
I get so much stress i just shut down. last week DH bought dinner on way home and only wanted a sandwich one night so in this weeks grocery i bought bare minimum ..... I buy with a meal plan in mind (yes it is communicated) but lately he is getting home earlier then me and (who knows why he has not done this in months) starts cooking something entirely different then the plan. throws off all my ingredients especially fresh items that do NOT last until next week. I have cut way back on produce because of this tired of throwing money away.
I have come to the point where i want to act like roommates buy your own food and leave me out of it.
This is the one time of year he simply does not stay with plans or evidently pays zero attention.
Last minute appease him BS costs me every year and simply put i do not have the extra as the company i am temping with shuts down for 10 days from Christmas to past new years and i will not have a check.
Maybe i just need to vent or maybe i need suggestions on dealing with the holiday disconnect.
Perhaps a strange title but i was looking around my house and noticed. there are some items that need to go.
Example my son a couple of years ago managed a store at a mall and then he bought me (well meaning) a ton of scented lotions from one of those shops like Bodyworks, you know then buy three get 3 great idea if you have 6 people.. but nope mom got all 6 used some tried different scents but honestly i could grease up an elephant with this volume. I have it in a line on counter try to use as I can but in all honesty the only reason I am keeping is sentimental not functional. i have hovered over the bin but put them back on counter telling myself to use more.
I have many items like this. When my mom passed I took items from her home as memories but also because i knew she loved them . Items costume jewelry i may never wear, candles i have in boxes perhaps in a major power outage i could burn them .... pictures I have never hung .... they do bring memories but as i get older I realize they mean nothing to my own adult kids i tell them stories they nod politely but a 3rd generation candy dish is not going to be a treasure for them.
Some items may mean something to siblings but i do not talk to them at all i am thinking in some cases i took items more so they would not take and sell them at the urging of relatives ( couple siblings have issues with substance abuse) but i did not need or want some items. I am not even sure how i could return these item to them have not spoken in years. i see now sooner or later memories disappear and who know maybe these item will be a garage sale after I am gone.
what is the best way to let go.....
I know as a financial site we discuss saving tips /good deals /better interest rates etc.
It is fun to see some bloggers get excited and inspired as they climb out of debt or start a journey into financial fitness. Even reading about items some do for fun.
I am on good footing lately but I am not I would say satisfied or really happy.
I have been talking to others and see that all jobs have problems and perhaps I should find a distraction like e-book or game to fill my time.
I am paid well for very little work. while great for me it is emotionally draining as I know people ARE paying a lot for the products this company is developing (medication) so i can play candy crush.
Ever wonder why prescriptions cost so much?
My savings and financial picture is making great strides and I am feeling ill about it.
The area we live is congested and sucky and so we seldom go out .... no spend days are so simple for me but I am bored. i wonder if it is a phase or just the way it is.
I listen to others at work and most people seem in similar situations of boredom and dissatisfaction. Many resort to eating. none look happy or even smile.
I have actually watched some gain weight since being hired.
I guess I need to find more hobbies or something.
i am tired of going to another placement after another to find same attitudes and disappointment.
Most of the fun or engaging jobs I have had were lower end and now that my resume shows a higher level most lower end pass thinking they could not pay as well or I would leave.
Life is about more then how much you make or at least i would hope so.
so i had a long weekend off the check for this week will be sad but as this is just extra income I am OK.
I went to a dermatologist as I had a new odd growth looked like a mole had all the " signs" the articles etc tell you to look for irregular edges / rough texture/ changing color /itchy etc.
Took this DR 15 seconds to say "Nope, it is a common benign growth ( long weird name) that has zero chance of cancer"
I was relieved but also felt a bit silly. i told him that i had been reading and this met many of items to look for and he said " yep see people all the time that DO NOT need to be here based on some fear mongering skin cancer article".
I was surprised by his candor and wonder how many people are taking time for appointments I missed 2 hours of work and paying co-pay etc for this sort of thing. Perhaps this is why we have such a medical care problem in this country... people who put stuff off or people clogging the system for no reason.
I KNOW i will think twice before running in based on "SIGNS" to look for not just misleading articles but if you look up in a site on internet often say the same thing.
this is new insurance so i am not even sure yet what this will end up costing me.
I can blame no one but myself. When i interviewed for this job it was mostly to get a practice interview and be back in a better place for job searching.
The last temp place ended quickly and had made me angry at the incompetence that i was hired for 6 months and it ended at 6 weeks because the manager hired based on false information. The amount of work was grossly overestimated or her regular staff was that slow.
I had doubts before interview thought they would go another way. I should have said no. The money is good/ i don't have nearly enough to do.
Now they have me doing more items involving going to other buildings we have i am now driving between them and I get no extra for gas.
Tomorrow they want me to drive into a large city we are close to for an hour meeting. Even on low traffic times the drive to and from will be an hour each way( pay for parking).
i am on the clock and therefore i would think that is a liability issue if i was hurt in an accident.
That is too much, I looked at public transportation would be 3 buses and 1 hour 49 minutes each way.
A day before a holiday most people will not even be there i am not happy. I may take a day off since i have not been feeling well and have a dr appt later today.
i think the travel between all these locations should have been told to me they said SELDOM ... not many times a week. They did not mention this place that is so difficult to get to.
The time is NOT distance but the insane traffic in this area. that puts my car at risk as they have many accidents in that congestion.
Everyone else is on salary so they seem put out that I do not take my computer home each day and answer their emails after hours. I AM hourly and it is not ok to ask me to work off the clock.
The meetings they have me take notes and order and serve food at are at lunchtime but they seem put out that I take my 30 minute Lunch break after the meeting. They want me to send emails and do items discussed in meeting to me that is working through my time.
I am trying to see the good in this job regardless of how boring it is.
I was upset about the decrease in savings partly because I thought some of the money was coming from a different source ( a joint account with DH)
I realize that this is not worth getting worked up about in comparison I am but should be MORE grateful that I have great flexibility in re-saving that amount etc.
I just need to refocus and plan for other items.
I am trying to think up Christmas ideas that have meaning not just gifts for gifts. I have been trying to get people experiences instead of stuff. I have 3 very different groups to buy for so it makes it especially hard but can search for ideas in my downtime at job.
We as savers carefully watch as our balances grow like a plant. Once in awhile something comes up and we need to spend some of our money.
In my case it is a long overdue furnace upgrade in house #1. In general it is a good thing and actually will be some what of an investment as it will be something I would have had to do if i was going to sell.
Not sure we will but the idea has been discussed.
i ended up taking some funds out of 2 accounts.
I simply hate the feeling of looking at the dropped balances.
I am freaking out about trying to get the balances back up and how long it will take.
i honestly do not think i have as much anxiety if i had charged it on a card instead. I somehow find it more comforting to watch a balance on card fall then how slowly accounts seem to build. i am down 5k.
In my head it all makes sense pay with cash funds... no interest etc ...........but i HATE spending an account that took almost a year to get to that point.
On the good news front after getting a letter saying my payment on house one could change due to escrow amounts i find out today it went down 39.23 a month and our car insurance also went down about $5.00 per month. i am trying to be positive that i can recoup my savings with the $44 extra helping.
So as i was planning to give notice i stopped my aggressive payoff retirement plan. Then when given a 5K estimate for a home upgrade made me stop and grin and bear this insufferable job at least til end of year.
So since i have the cash for home item, I started back on paying items and forgot I had sent a check for property tax as well. It is not a huge item as i have the money in account but it will put me UNDER my comfort level for that account. it will take two weeks to remedy this oversight.
I then switched and started using account 2 and had to buy car tabs.
I do not know why everytime it is such a hassle I have my cars registered at my primary address across the state and pay less then half what this side of state wants due to insane amounts of local taxes....
Example last year this side of state would have been $483 my cost was $98.
This IS legal to register anywhere in state if you have proof of residence, according to the state... so why these clerks treat me like i am stealing money from their pocket confuses me.
So after a very terse discussion I got my tabs and am thinking of making a complaint either on yelp or with the state as this is a group that does licensing work for the state.
i really am trying to avoid negativity but it seems to find me.
So DH ordered a couple of things on Amazon ( i try so hard to get him to quit due to their appalling practices) so an hour later I heard a commotion outside and they dropped off a pkg about 1 hour after order. 8pm Saturday ... then we wake up at 5am with a strange car in front of our house ....another package....5am on Sunday.... this is creepy IMO we did not need this item that fast.
So yesterday i was drafting a email to temp agency to let them know this job is insufferable.
I also met with manager at job and told him how frustrated i am that there is so little to do. He seemed shocked he thought what I was doing took more time he did not have any answer but wants to schedule more meetings..I gave him suggestions of how I might help but he was more interested in creating an agenda for our next meeting and turning my suggestions into a official sounding item.
I told him I worked through one list given to me from a co-worker and found half the people on list were no longer employed there.
All he said was "that is information management". I told him there are many other reports that might need to be gone through ..... he said maybe.
I do not have access to these why he would not just send to me to cut down these lists so they are accurate????
I was unhappy but told myself i would just give notice then .....
I needed to pick a couple items up at store and when got home DH had not even thought about helping cook or anything I blew up.
Later he told me he had an estimate to replace a 30 yr old furnace in our other home and it will take all of one of my EFs I have built up.
SO I guess I am stuck at this horrible job longer. I am beginning to wonder why?
I have been praying for a sign of what to do. sometimes I think things have a reason. when I was in another job that was supposed to last 6 months... I was approached with offer to apply for this JOB I passed because i had a job.
That job was over in about 5 weeks as the level of work was greatly exaggerated.
I simply answered a email about a different possible position to a different recruiter and the recruiters boss (who originally had tried over a month earlier) asked me to interview for this anyway I thought it was a sign as the job was still open and they are paying $5-6 more per hour so it was surprising to be open. (no one was ever hired so it was not they found out it sucked.) Maybe i need to stay longer when i finally was going to leave this $5000 estimate shows up.