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back to work

December 2nd, 2019 at 02:33 pm

so i had a long weekend off the check for this week will be sad but as this is just extra income I am OK.

I went to a dermatologist as I had a new odd growth looked like a mole had all the " signs" the articles etc tell you to look for irregular edges / rough texture/ changing color /itchy etc.
Took this DR 15 seconds to say "Nope, it is a common benign growth ( long weird name) that has zero chance of cancer"
I was relieved but also felt a bit silly. i told him that i had been reading and this met many of items to look for and he said " yep see people all the time that DO NOT need to be here based on some fear mongering skin cancer article".
I was surprised by his candor and wonder how many people are taking time for appointments I missed 2 hours of work and paying co-pay etc for this sort of thing. Perhaps this is why we have such a medical care problem in this country... people who put stuff off or people clogging the system for no reason.

I KNOW i will think twice before running in based on "SIGNS" to look for not just misleading articles but if you look up in a site on internet often say the same thing.
this is new insurance so i am not even sure yet what this will end up costing me.

wish i was told

November 26th, 2019 at 01:03 pm

I can blame no one but myself. When i interviewed for this job it was mostly to get a practice interview and be back in a better place for job searching.

The last temp place ended quickly and had made me angry at the incompetence that i was hired for 6 months and it ended at 6 weeks because the manager hired based on false information. The amount of work was grossly overestimated or her regular staff was that slow.

I had doubts before interview thought they would go another way. I should have said no. The money is good/ i don't have nearly enough to do.
Now they have me doing more items involving going to other buildings we have i am now driving between them and I get no extra for gas.

Tomorrow they want me to drive into a large city we are close to for an hour meeting. Even on low traffic times the drive to and from will be an hour each way( pay for parking).
i am on the clock and therefore i would think that is a liability issue if i was hurt in an accident.

That is too much, I looked at public transportation would be 3 buses and 1 hour 49 minutes each way.

A day before a holiday most people will not even be there i am not happy. I may take a day off since i have not been feeling well and have a dr appt later today.
i think the travel between all these locations should have been told to me they said SELDOM ... not many times a week. They did not mention this place that is so difficult to get to.

The time is NOT distance but the insane traffic in this area. that puts my car at risk as they have many accidents in that congestion.

Everyone else is on salary so they seem put out that I do not take my computer home each day and answer their emails after hours. I AM hourly and it is not ok to ask me to work off the clock.
The meetings they have me take notes and order and serve food at are at lunchtime but they seem put out that I take my 30 minute Lunch break after the meeting. They want me to send emails and do items discussed in meeting to me that is working through my time.

beginning to see it

October 21st, 2019 at 01:12 pm

I began working at a young age. Prior to a "real" job I did odd jobs and babysitting etc. i have always saved never had much use for trends etc.
Never knew what "i wanted to be when i grew up" and took and stayed at a job for many years based on benefits more then pay.
Well after my needs changed my DH wanted to move for a job we had talked about it for a decade with many many offers. Well we did it and he said you no longer HAVE to work. I did continue to work, part out of boredom part to continue paying things. i have NEVER liked this area it has been almost 7 years and still hate it. worked various places have not found a place i WANTED to stay plenty of offers from employers begging me to stay.
i have a friend whom has a seasonal job that from what i can see not great paying but she says she just LOVES it...
i am jealous i guess i want something i want to go to not hate so bad i start to have regular "sick" days just because i can not force myself to go. This current job has showed me i would work for half the pay doing the most mundane things i can think of and be satisfied.
Do others just suck it up and go when you cannot stand it?
If i hear one more person say " i wish i had so little to do" I might smack them.
NO you don't.
Yes, I have spent days writing for myself/ reading a book and surfing the internet even fell asleep once. This is in an open workspace so pretending to be busy is the normal although most days the ladies room is filled with people either talking or playing games on their phone.

This is becoming intolerable but people say i am crazy since they pay quite well for NOTHING.

I am not in the right frame of mind to interview for another position as this is a placement i will need to talk to both agency and employer to say no thanks can no longer do this. I want to maintain a relationship with agency in case i need another placement but i am worried if i let this fester much longer i will snap.

great progress vs mental sanity

October 16th, 2019 at 01:04 pm

Well another week I made deposits to all accounts and paid extra on mortgage.... I should be thrilled but I HATE being bored all day at work.

I am less and less impressed with the people I work with as they all do so little it is amazing. I am really leaning towards giving notice. everyone in person tells me to just suck it up since they pay very well..... but it is eating at my soul to sit doing nothing and taking a check for it.

I feel bad because they would need to show a new person procedures i have learned to do here but I am becoming snappy at home simply put DH was used to me doing EVERYTHING when off work now he seems to expect me to come home and do all by myself.
I cannot be so frustrated and then face dirty dishes and a whats for dinner attitude from him. FIGURE IT OUT yourself i just spent 4 hours trying to stay awake i do not want to be go right to cooking.