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September 14th, 2019 at 10:29 am

i picked up my new glasses they are great it is nice to see so clearly again. The prescription changes slightly but the real issue seems to be how scratched up blurry my last lens got.
I am toying with my options to save up a few checks as a cushion and leave this job or pay / invest as much as I can so I feel like I NEED this job.

I think the biggest issue is i do not feel like i fit here. I have not felt like i fit in many a temp gig but this one is different. These people have zero sense of urgency and seem disconnected. The place in in a state of constant change as they are expanding/ remodeling and restructuring all at once in meeting a few more people in other departments I have been assured most feel lost like i do at the moment.

I am amused in people watching though Odd group to watch. A senior person in a important job but (approx 50-60 yr old) she dresses like PEG BUNDY (married with children). The highest ranking person in office had to remind her NOT to wear flip flops and now he does this weird shoe inspection as he walks by. Another upper management ( in his department) takes off his shoes and walks around in socks.

No dress code is laid out but it is odd to see those dressed like they are going to a wedding next to someone who looks like they just mowed the lawn. If i am paid fairly well $24 an hour as a temp. These people have to be making a decent amount but they are so cheap looking for snacks / lunch to be provided.

I ordered the suggested lunch for a meeting from lady who did this before me. It seemed to fall flat thank heavens we just put all left overs in break room and it seems to disappear immediately. I will try something different next time.




cannot seem to make the switch

September 6th, 2019 at 08:24 pm

So when i started new job i told myself to tackle one goal at a time but as payday came i went back to my standard of a bit to everything.

I do not seem to be able to just make one lump sum on one thing then next check another. It is like all the accounts have their mouth opening saying feed me.

I paid extra principle on house
paid a big chunk of cc
added to 3 savings accounts and 2 retirement funds.
paid some basic bills and have just enough for grocery and gas for the next week

I did finally transfer 1500 from a low rate savings to my higher rate account but i still hate looking at the accounts because even though the TOTAL of all accounts is the same, one looks sort of puny.

It is silly that i had told myself to try paying in a different way but when the time came fell back on habit.
i know across the board type of action does not feel like i am getting anywhere fast. I just like to see across the board progress i guess. i really do not think i will be able to pull the trigger on the change for next payday either.

this and that

July 12th, 2019 at 07:42 am

Well as a mixed blessing the temp job that IMO was poorly organized and executed has come to an end. The amount of work was grossly overestimated and now they ran out of enough to keep all busy.
Since I had a family member ill and did not need the job they decided to cut it short. I honestly think it was because I spoke up about a employee whom was doing some things that were at best questionable. I was honestly relieved by the whole thing. I had odd feelings about it and looking back know it would have been better if I had passed on that.

The manager was exposed for #1 not knowing the true amount of work and #2 lack of oversite on employee whom was out of control.


I have to get a tree removed from yard on house one and did not realize how pricey that can be but as it is very tall, half dead, and near power lines not a DIY event.

I really need to get in a clear frame of mind and be clear about my goals when looking for my next position. I have been offered another spot with same client company but NOW see how poorly run the whole operation seems to be.
Maybe a more permanent situation would be better. It is harder to focus on jobs when I am not under stress for the money. I will sit down and plan a path being far more picky to avoid a similar situation i just got out of.


shred day

June 29th, 2019 at 10:02 am

So in the process of looking for a piece of paper I know I touched at least twice last time I was looking for something else I uncovered a mess of papers I stuck in box or drawer meaning to look later.

I decided to go through and shred all OLD 2015 and prior items I have no idea why I keep as most I can access online even older lets say contribution conformations and bank statements.
Still have not come across the item I need but I cleaned out a large bag and recycled a ton of paper with no personal info/ and empty envelopes. so I feel more in control of paper mountain.

I am still moving money around to put as much away as possible while still on my bad temp assignment. I am slowly lowering amount I usually keep in checking was 2k lowered to 1500 now working on 900 but it is hard to go under amounts until I feel ok about it. it is the right thing as this checking account is not making interest and my other accounts are.
IT is just habit is hard to break.

I have applied for a much more promising position ( please keep good thoughts for me) that is more long term as this assignment has made me rethink my position on Temp work. I was ok enjoyed 6-12 month assignments and then taking time off in between but this one has been TOTALLY not worth it.
Started with some pre-cooking to save time making dinners in the weekdays I am working later then DH so he has to do some meals.
I par=roasted some vegetables and then he can heat and finish quickly in a pan. I also am pre-caramelizing some onions with peppers.
Went to a concert last night was very good and the best part was watching the crowd I am always amused by what people will do or wear in this area. I am dismayed that so many people seem to think an outfit for yardwork also doubles as night on the town. LOL

First check on this job

June 20th, 2019 at 05:23 am

I just saw the deposit of the first check of job. it was only for 38.5 hours as we cut a day short when the place had zero access for us due to poor planning.

as I finish up week 2 I really see this was a mistake to take this one. Anyway my money goes into 3 accts and will take a couple of checks to get back to levels I want.
After taking this job and being miserable I paid a bunch of things that depleted my accounts to below my Normal comfort level. Even though it was suppose to make me want to stay on job it did not help much. I paid enough on principle on house #1 so regular payments will take it down another $2000 level by end of year. added to retirement and took all savings accounts up a bit.

Was talking to co-workers whose lives are very different as they were desperate for check to hit their accts. They talked about changing direct deposit to their wives accts so they can curb their spending. I told them the place can split the deposit up to (6 )accts. and said I did that. I just do not understand how they can miss it as it is clear on the site we use for paycheck info.
I clearly do not get their world. Now they want everyone to go in to buy lunch for whole group. I do not want to be cheap but I see this as a headache and expense I simply do not want. Live in fear this will end up with all others "forgetting" their wallet or picking some expensive choice since they are spend every dime kind of people.

trying to make it work

June 15th, 2019 at 10:59 am

I realized my frustration level is effecting many aspects of my life. I really need more of a goal/ plan to be focused on other items.

I finished week one of new temp assignment I truly hope we can finish project faster then the 6 months they planned. There are 5 temps 2 I had worked with previously. one of those was let go last time for incompetence I cannot fathom why this place hired him again.
The 2 new temps are looking for permanent placements and this will not be one. New ppl to the temp game often fall for the cheerleading staff agencies who do this to get people to sign up.

One is traveling a big distance and it really confuses me as closer to her home is much bigger and busier in help wanted on ALL the job seeking websites so Why take a job so far from home? Other lady is from a place I found NEVER fired even the worst people but she was let go...…??? makes me wonder.

some already on day 3 begging for OT really hope they only offer to them as at least 2 of us DO NOT want any OT. It will be harder to find a new gig when they are insisting on 8-5 because that is the hours MGR likes to work. I guess I can schedule interviews and call them doctors appointments.

I dislike lying but am not impressed with this as after one week we did more work then they planned for and the manager wants us to slow down so it meets her time plan instead of having her boss see that mgr really did not KNOW how long this would take. Big game of CYA in my opinion.


Sorry to rant.
On the finance front I am still not sure what plan to put first bigger EF/ IRA/ principal paydown on house #1. It is easier to put up with crappy placements when I have a focus for the money so it is very important for me to pick one.

does anyone follow the rules

May 31st, 2019 at 05:42 pm

so I did talk with a few other job items but was waiting thinking I would hear any day on start time on the job OFFERED and ACCEPTED on May 20th
I finally told them I had other offers was no longer waiting since I had not heard back from them and it has been almost 2 weeks. Immediately I got a phone call with many excuses for the delay etc.
they use an extremely small lab for employment screenings the page you print out and take had in all caps none would be done without an appointment so I followed the RULES and made the soonest possible. when I got there I found even with an all caps note in a different color from all of the page the squeezed ppl in IF they did not make an appointment.
WHY do I mention this ??
Because the first EXCUSE for dragging this out seemed to be insinuating it is MY fault I had to wait a few days for my appointment.
I guess I should have just showed up and demanded to be worked in sooner????
I am so angry now even though they also said they do not have computers set up for this job and my access although I was just on their system 30 days ago..... I passed on another opportunity at this point and with a Wednesday June 5th start date my first check will be for only 24 hrs.
this frustration is added to my other items I have had to deal with lately with a bank and others things.
the area I now live in just has this idea of oh well that is how things work... NO you keep a candidate in the loop as to timeframe etc not wait until they tell you I am thinking of taking something else. No wonder they seem so surprised when they find a good person most would have moved on.
I am at a loss lately as to why I HONOR my word. READ and follow rules and simply do my best when it seems like NO one else is.


I am simply at the point where I have calculated my expected return on this job and by January.
I will be moving back to my original city where People have more respect for others.


trying to blog again.

May 13th, 2019 at 05:54 am

I was simply not in the right place to blog before not sure I am now but I find putting ideas or things in writing especially with the ability to get feedback is something I might need.

I am in a very mixed place as my temporary job has now ended. I have no desire to find a new placement and simply have not seen the right job listings for something I can picture myself in a permanent role. I know that I need to adjust my attitude to be in a better place I am just frustrated by incompetence that surrounds me.

For some unknown reason the IRS said the direct deposit for our refund did not work no explanation (the routing and acct # were correct) so they said they would mail a check waiting and waiting and when it gets here not only did they have the wrong zip code they put the wrong street # ( my street is 112th they had address on 11th street) too all was CORRECT on the filing and the w-2s attached , just gross incompetence on the IRS.

I had many emails the last week of work telling me they wanted to place me here or there.... I responded to all those that were relevant to my commute distances etc and told agencies, I was free on a specific date.... fast forward and now zero follow-ups or getting back in touch with me.

there were many jobs listed while I was still working I should have applied for but as I felt I should finish assignment and the last couple of weeks they kept changing end dates I honored my commitment now that I am done the good postings in my area seem to vanish.


thankfully I am in a good finance place. I was really able to boost my savings at last placement and spouse income is more then enough to support us. I have NEVER applied for unemployment but know that I am qualified to do so I am wondering if it will be worth the hassle just in case I do get a call back from temp place.