So DH put up lights on our house as well as the elderly neighbors house. it is an extension cord and her lights are tied to ours.
I know she would worry about increased cost and I guess it is fine since we can afford what ever small amount the few extra strings of light will add up. It has made her happy and her friends came by to see. I guess that should make me feel more like holiday like but nope.
Today is the anniversary of my mothers death it has hit me very hard but I have no one to share with.
I am very stressed about the next month where the job expects a ton of OT. I just do not feel like it is worth it and I get cranky as I see others stretch stuff out to soak up OT which makes boss think we ALL need to be there. I have transferred more money out of liquid accounts to prepay mortgage and extra to IRAs just to try to trick myself into wanting to restock accounts with OT money, so far this has not worked.
I need to find a hobby or a goal to save money for. I need motivation to move forward. I am needing to focus on my health as well I have been randomly eating. My DH has brought home treats and bought items we have not been eating because he knows I have been stressed and a bit depressed.
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So DH put up lights on our house as well as the elderly neighbors house. it is an extension cord and her lights are tied to ours.
I had high hopes to reach a few goals I made for myself by end of year. I doubt now I will make some of them time seems to be moving so fast.
it has been almost a years since my mother passed and I am fighting bouts of depression as the time is approaching.
I lowered my cushion in checking and paid on car and house but I hate the feeling of the lower cushion so I will need to build back up.
End of September had a week with decent OT but have spent all the extra on bills / savings. I do not want to do the seven day a week thing again this month but maybe just a few extra hours a day. having my direct deposit split in 3 accounts makes it seem like I am not making progress in main account.
So tomorrow will be the last day of the first week of new job. All is going very well. I have more work then I can complete each day and will not be just sitting waiting for work like last job. commute is also shorter and less stressing. Saving on gas as well.
Last week was exhausting leading up to my sons wedding on Saturday everything went well no real hiccups so we are very glad to get past the stress of wedding plans.
My house is still messy after having daughter/ son in law and grandkids at house for a few days for wedding events. I have a lot of kid type food leftover so I will make lunches out of it.
I am still not sure what my plan should be as paychecks start rolling in again. I cannot seem to focus on one goal. So I guess I will just stay the course and make all over progress.
I took a quick trip to my hometown. My daughter and family lives there in my house. I not pleased with lack of yardwork done and general upkeep I will need to discuss and talk with DH about reminding them to clean up more or hiring help. My son in law also seems to think each time I am in town I should take them out for meals etc.
Went to visit my step dad it has been since November since my mom passed but he does not seem to be doing well. I told him how bad a financial mess she had left behind in NOVEMBER.
Now almost 9 months later my siblings JUST figured it out that there is simply NOTHING to estate but bills and they seem confused as to where any money went.
I was quite clear that it was bailing out everyone of siblings and families crisis ( they had a crisis daily). Even though NONE of my siblings are working and live locally, they think that I should drop everything ( a fulltime job) and drive 5 hours to clean up her house and things. I looked over things again and she had some nice clothes and things but not even close to my size but somehow they think I should take these items I took a few items but regret it already as it is nothing but clutter for me to deal with.
So this week is over half over has been awkward at best. Everyone has ignored me since I gave notice. 1 person has talked to me and I just explained it was a better opportunity. So 3 other people have quit this place since I gave notice so I feel it is NOT just me being picky.
I am doing ok and this week they have given me work after I send emails asking for a new project … really for a month I sat half the time and now that I am leaving they have workflow. I just take a deep breath and do what I can. I found out I will need to leave early or come in late to go to a specific lab for the drug test for new place. It is 15 miles away but with traffic will be an hour round trip and the clinic is only open 7-4 Monday through Friday. Again how do people manage to fit this stuff in always taking time off to change jobs?? I am trying very hard to let my frustrations go and work on going forward.
So as the title suggests I gave notice to job last night. A job I had applied for awhile back called and offered me a better position closer to home/ more money / longer plan. I was planning on giving notice anyway I just feel it looks better that I am leaving for something else. Was told yesterday this place has hired another person too to help with the workload ?? Other 4 had a 40 minute conversation about stories of bad personal hygiene they had encountered in previous workplaces.
I think the thing that settled it for me was since we had little to do my department was told to clean the breakroom for the whole office. NOT a big thing I have worked at places before that rotated this duty but I was unaware it was our "turn" and the reminder sent to all was a bit condescending.
No guarantee that new job will fix my malaise about working as many here have said they are in the same frame of mind ( all around the same age). I am just dreading the reaction today as they find I am leaving. I work for temp agency so sent notice to them, they can tell the client.
I am making hard goals to keep me focused on the next year of work. I would like to get as much as I can paid off and in retirement so DH and I can decide what to do next. He is in the mode wanting to do more travel/ etc but as he is salary and has a lot of PTO and I am contract with no PTO it is hard for us to work out time off.
So as an update I recently decided to pay as much as possible to car made some good progress as shown on sidebar. I also opened a new account that is paying a promo rate of 6% on savings and 4% on checking so I am going to move some from regular account over to new one to make the interest. ( my normal bank has no close branches here so I wanted an option if I need to deposit cash or checks).
This did help with the dissatisfaction with new job until I sat for 5 hours AGAIN yesterday. It is exhausting and frustrating to be so bored and pretend to work and look busy. Yes I asked sent 2 emails to supervisor for work even went over to her desk. just told she will send me a project. I want out and no progress on car or saving money can fix that. I am sure if I quit temp agency likes to punish ppl so they wont consider placing me until this contract would have been over... if I stay this company wants this to turn into a fulltime thing prolonging this is helping NO one I am miserable/ they are wasting time training me and temp agency needs to find them someone who can sit doing nothing and be ok with that.
I keep hearing "look for a job when you HAVE one " how is this working for others?
I can not seem to get it to work for me.
I would have to take time off for interviews and that is rude or obvious I am looking elsewhere when I ask for time off in the first month I am there. Maybe it is just me. I am having issues with this job already and unfortunately it is EXACTLY as was described in a yelp post about this place.
The training is zero/ my workload is zero I have sat there more then work keep being told they will have something for me in a little bit. Finally just discussed with supervisor her info showed I had 7 projects but those are done with my part and sent to the next person I told her that and she seemed confused why the reviewer has not been working on looking at the work and either finished the process or sending back for corrections.
supervisor gave me new project had conflicting info on it when I asked the lead she BARKED at me " you don't know what you are reading" well 5 minutes later she saw the EXACT thing I told her and emailed for clarification( I was added to email). I do not take well to being barked at.
The last day was 15 emails back and forth planning a team building put-put golf outing that is an hour drive away for me and includes "drinks" which I am not a drinker. I have politely declined on this and many offers of Starbucks runs and offer to all get takeout for lunch after I brought my lunch. the place they chose (I looked after words) was $10-15 for lunch and they do this 2-3 times a week.
HOW much am I supposed to spend to FIT IN ???
They seem to think I am offish because I said no thanks- I told them I am watching my weight and have food allergies so I rarely eat out but they seem to take it personally.
Maybe I am not up to speed on what the norm but this is very stressful on me and I come home angry every day.
So as the end of my 3rd week of new job is quickly approaching I am faced with a decision.
I do not see a future here period. I know it has only been a short time but I try to picture myself in 6 month/ a year etc. Most places I can see it really cannot here. Not interested in what they do
As with many jobs I have taken some I stay with telling myself well I have (x) amount coming in. I tell myself I will continue to apply etc but reality is that is short lived and I am stuck at a place I never wanted to be at. They were NOT clear on what this job was and I am busy for probably half week the rest I am pretending to be busy it is exhausting.
This is probably why they have had problems filling this on their own and went to a temp agency. I had hoped to hear about other job but not yet I really think i should give notice anyway they could be training another person who wants to do this and I would be forced to find something else.
I realized this week that my funk is my own to get out of. I spoke with hubby about my procrastination and inability to embrace the job I have now and even with interviewing for other jobs what if I am not happy there either.
I read other posts where people have made their budgets to pay and just looking forward to the target date. I asked myself why everyone else seems to embrace the day to day grind. What is my hurry or panic to get things over. I honestly do not have a plan for what to do after car is paid etc. I really need a goal or plan.
I just wanted to speed things along instead of doing it slow and steady. I sat down and wrote down all the items I have procrastinated on. I am taking a deep breath and starting everything one day at a time.
I will put in effort in what ever job I end up with and try not to be restless and thinking the grass is greener everywhere else. it is much easier said then done. my balances have dropped a bit since last month the CC / car and house about 300 a piece. Even if my job ends up not being great it is ONLY temporary.
So the interview I went on Monday they decided on someone else not that I did not want job but as I am just finishing the second week of new job and so I have something to bring money in anyway.
I got an email the interviewer went to another bigger department in her company told them she thought I would meet their needs better so they want me to come interview. I told them although interested I could not get away midday from other job for meeting. thought that was it …… but they asked me what time worked for me so I am going in before work today. This job pays the same or a bit better then the job I just started and has a longer contract and is closer to home by a few miles. I am not going to get hyped up just going in talking and if it does not pan out I won't be disappointed. The current job is one where they stress accuracy but it is in an industry that changes prices/ rules constantly so it is more like chasing your tail to keep up.
If I do get the job I am interviewing for. I will need to give notice at current job but wonder if they will even want me to do those weeks since I am in early stages and it would be a waste of time & effort to train me for things if I am not there longer. I am always uncomfortable to give notice places I know they will get over it. I just was never good at cutting the cord even if I dislike the job.
So now in my area the labor force has dried up, Everyday I am getting offer after offer for work opportunities. it makes me restless wondering if the grass is greener elsewhere.
I spent today trying to catch up from taking a sick day off at brand new job. Funny thing is I do not think I am getting their processes AT ALL. They seem to think I am a whiz at it. I really am baffled at how their expectations can be so low or how they measure success.
I am not sure what to do. If the interview I went on calls, I am not sure if I take it or not, the lady that did interview thinks the job is below my skills and pays a little less at this job I am in now. I almost wish I was more motivated by debt payoff or savings goals I am just burned out.
Does anyone have ideas to get back some motivation?
I can stay at the worst job ever if motivated but the idea that my debt load is a lot smaller then it was a year ago and I am hazy about my savings goals. I need to get focused. Really need to snap out of this it is effecting my sleep/ and how I feel outside work.